Many years ago I noticed my emotions were getting out of control. I was starting to feel a heightened sense of emotion when hearing stories. If someone was telling me something sad I got tears in my eyes and really felt their pain. If I watched a traumatic movie I would get visibly upset and it would stay with me for days. Almost draining me. Happy news is of course wonderful. I get a sense of warmth and chills down my body. As time has passed I have come to realize I am an empath.
I have done a lot of research on the subject and am always shocked and surprised when all descriptions are me. I fought it for a long time and only recently have started to learn how to deal with all of these emotions in a healthy way.
I can get so wrapped up in other peoples problems that it begins to consume my life. I need to fix it. I have to fix it. Why can’t I fix it? My husband was beginning to get very upset with me. He couldn’t understand how no matter how I tried or promised I just couldn’t let others problems go. I now realize it is who I am. I need to consciously decide when a situation is beneficial or toxic to me and then choose what to do.
The problem with this new conscious thinking is I seem to be cutting people out of my life. I do not want to deal with other peoples drama when it is so detrimental to who I am as a person. I also do not want to end up an introverted person. I have way to many good things to share with the people I love and the rest of the world.
I will continue to trust the process of my life’s journey while always making sure I am doing right by me and those I love.
Be Happy and Smile